Kuda ku lari gagah berani!

Initially I wanted to draw a unicorn, but somehow I got too into the drawing, I forgot about the horn. So yeah, I just randomly put something else on it so it would look a bit like a unicorn. Did a little noob editing and wallah, a whatever.

A sad looking horse.

A high/stoned looking horse aka unicorn

(Tu kepit baju)

This is not what I intended as my first post. Who wanna write about horses. I mean, I don't even know how to ride a horse. The last time that I rode a horse, kuda tu berhenti berak! I was freaking embarrassed that I climbed down the horse eventhough I was just about 5 years old on a freaking tall horse. Aku malu okay. Malu sebab kuda tu berak tak kena timing. And people were shouting cause it was a very dangerous act. But being a 5 year old, who would think about dangerous stuff? Everything is a reflex. Something unplanned, unpredictable. Something spontaneous. 

Then boom! I grew up!

I lost her.

Where did she go? Where did the unplanned, unpredictable and spontaneous girl go?

We lost her.

I really missed the old me or at least some of the traits that vanished with time. But I think with time itself, I shall recover them back. I actually never really change. My characters are being overshadowed by my own doings, the so-called-being-a-grown-up. I mean Peter pan is a genius. Being a grown up sucks. Well at least it sucks when it comes to having fun. Being a kid, you can actually do whatever. No heartbreaks, no complication, no nothing. 

Maybe all I want is just a life of being alive. Of being myself. It will take maybe around a month, maybe two or even a year. Who cares, I will find her. The girl who used to love her self so much. The girl that is slowly being forgotten by time. She will be back, eventually

to turn an ordinary horse to an individual unicorn.

It's time.

"The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell"