so...for anyone (friends, father, mother, siblings etc) to ever think for a second that if ever im going to continue my studies or whatever it is that im gonna do after this will revolve around TESL, well i just want to say that it makes me sad and awfully lonely at the same time. it makes me feel as if nobody in this world knows me at all. its a lonely feeling when youre dreaming alone, i wish somebody would know about my dreams and aspirations, i know ive never talked to anyone abt it to be fair, mind you sometimes i never make an effort to get to know other people as well. Its just that ive been sitting alone and something got me back to a conversation with someone recently and all along it revolved around tesl and when that realization happened i was like god no, no more tesl for me. it just saddens me that ive left behind that so long ago and its not even in the slightest corner of my mind eventho its something im grateful for and it was something all ive ever wanted long time ago based on people's opinion and suggestion of what and who i should be when i grow up, and yet still, people think that its something ill be doing in the future. this is an unfair post, but to be fair to me, i did say that this is a personal issue, i am not blaming anyone, i just want to tell that im sad and it makes me feel lonely because forever i will be a nobody.
this dream, my parents never know how great i am at it, not even my closest friends know that im great at it, in fact i feel like im special because of it, why do dreams need to be recognized? or else youll be left feeling lonely? well i dont know....
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| PINOE |
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